Deadly Chronicles| This Is My World

2010-09-26T03:24:00.002+08:00

Love is blissful, yet painful.
Love gives us a reason, yet takes away some
Love gives us hope, but also shatter dreams.
But love is just a feeling.
Control it, it's wonderful
It controls you, it's manipulative.

Love changes us. For better or for the worse.

So where do you stand?

Resident Evil

2010-09-17T19:53:00.002+08:00

I guess today is a strange day?
Had the same converstation with and I had that very conversation with Natasha just now.
Bro said I should open up my heart again.
Yea right.

Okay anyway, finally watched Resident Evil: Afterlife today!
Watched with Shafiq.
Before meeting him, I rounded the game store abit. Really past my time.
Okay, then I meet him and his friends, and then both us go watch the movie.

The movie is awesome lahh. Milla Jovovich aka Alice and Ali Later aka Clair is hott lah. Hahaha girls turn me on. -.-
The actions supercool.
And finally the character Chris Redfield is introduced!
Ok sorry, I'm really a big fan of the game. So yea.

Wow, if this world is really zombie infested, i want to be the few survivors...who won't die.

Hahaha okay anyway thanks Shafiq for the treat.
I think I really should pay you, but thanks!

I better do Econs now, cos tmr whole day will be gone. L(

Thank You

2010-08-24T21:14:00.001+08:00

Written Report 2nd draft completed! Dont really bother if need to edit later on but feel so damn relieve right now!
Thank you mt awesome and efficient group members!
Thank you Rochelle, Alyssa, Preethi and Basyir! You guys had been great and never gave me problem!

May we all achieve the awesome grade!

Now I feel tired. But shall revise econs now.
Till next time ;)

Screw it

2010-08-15T21:41:00.001+08:00

Screw it. Screw this life.

Time of the year

2010-08-13T23:19:00.002+08:00

It is also around this time of the year where my laziness to blog strikes again.
Well i guess I barely have time now. Friday night will only be my free night.
The rest of the night will be preoccupied.
Because promos is in 55days.
Cool eh. Time flies so fast. It's scary.

Malay literature test was umm..I didn't complete the paper. Who did?
Maths test was okay. I guess.

GP. Econs and History next.
I'm not confident about GP.
I don't want to screw Econs.
And I must NOT screw History.

Because History is like my hope. :/

When I look back I will remember. I will remember.
All of you.

06082010

2010-08-08T20:37:00.007+08:00

A day where we sings our hearts out. A day where we laughed and smiled. A day where we bond and unite. A day where we celebrated. A day where i know i'm blessed with an awesome class an awesome friends. (:

I love them all (:

Clinging to a dream

2010-08-03T23:37:00.004+08:00

Wow such a drastic change in one day.
It seems tosay i just can't be bothered.
I don't notice people and i have no idea if i paid attention.
Yea i can't be bothered.

I should make an oath to stop being a yes girl.
Seriously. Cos i will end up with lots of stuffs to do and i'll end up stressing up myself which will then make me fall ill.

I can say no right. Hmmmm.
Or maybe i can't
And maybe i should learn.

This is an unforgiving world. One mistake and you may be doomed. So it seems.
But we can choose to change it, and make that world forgive us.
Cos everybody deserve a chance.
Deserve to find a reason.
Deserve to dream. Deserve to hope.

I may no longer have a reason, but i still have a dream. I still have hope.
Even if the dream seems impossible.

But if you stay focus, you can succeed.

Proudly a gamer

2010-08-01T19:08:00.001+08:00

You have now been assimilated. Resistance is futile. You can now proudly call yourself a gamer, unless of course you are Dan Ryckert

I followed gameinformer on twitter, game informer followed me back and send me a direct message.
So which means before this i wasn't "really" a gamer.

Funny. Ahahaha

So now i can proudly call myself a gamer. :D

So who is willing to share cost with me for starcraft II?

I bet no one.
Oh well.

I'm beginning not to care

2010-07-28T21:42:00.003+08:00

Screw it. Screw everything.
I hate this.

On the lighter note,
Starcraft II: Wings of Liberty is out yesterday.
I'm thinking whether i should get it.

Maybe it could cheepr me up.
But most probably it wont.

MIA

2010-07-26T20:11:00.002+08:00

Gonna be MIA- Missing in Action.
Well that means im not gonna update a lot. I will only update when i'm free, or i just need too.
Don't get me wrong. I'm not tired of blogging. In fact I have so many things to say.
But..

There is so much work to be done.
Promos is coming in 10 weeks.
I must work hard.

My dream might be shattered, but i'm still gonna work hard.. and maybe i might find a new dream..

Must move on right?
Come on, throw away your old dreams Rasyidah.
there is no way you can be a game designer or a game programmer with the subjects combination you are taking.

Let me find a new dream.
Till then, I shall just study.
For no reason.

Till next time.

Don't expect me to change for you.

2010-07-25T17:15:00.003+08:00

I can be observant if i want too.
I can be loud if i want too.
I can seek attention if i want too.
I can wear high heels if i want too.
i can try on make up if i want too.
i can be fashionable if i want too.
i can act more feminine if i want too.

But i rather silently observed.
I rather stay quiet.
I rather stay hidden.
I prefer to wear sneakers than heels.
I prefer to just put on eye liner and not the entire make up set.
I rather stay simple.
I prefer to stay the way i am now.

So if you can't accept me for who i am, and expect me to change? Get a life ok.
Hey, why should i try so hard to impress you?

Why must we try so hard to impress others?
Why can't they just accept us for who we are?
So what if we are short, or not so good-looking or not so pretty?
So what if we are slow and not so sporty?
So what if we dont look nice on photographs?
So what if we are too thin or too fat, or too tall, or too short?
SO WHATT?!

Because it won't make a difference you look like an idol but your attitude is like freaking shit.

So what if you say you like that person, but you can't accept him/her for who they are.

Why must that him/her try so hard to be accepted then?

Love is stupid.
It blind us.

Eighteen Chefs?

2010-07-21T21:56:00.002+08:00

My previous posts were all quite short. Ahahaha
Anyway, today is like a -.- day in school. I practically only came to school for Malay Lit?
First two hours were like break. It is always like this on Wednesdays
Anyway since today was LC, had a lunch outing with Sabrina, Nadia and Farhana.
Supposedly to go at 12 since all of J1s are dismiss at 12...
but guess what? the school locked all of us in.
We can only get out at 1pm. A lot of ppl were pissed man.

Anyway, the lunch!
We went to eighteenth chefs? At Eastpoint.

I tell you, I can never go out with them again man. Cos i will laugh till my stomach hurts.
Like really. -.-
But it was fun lahh! xD

anyway the food was nice, but i didnt finish it. ahahahahaha.

today i found out that farhana and nadia are fast eaters.
i also found out that they match each other perfectly =P
i found out sabrina and farhana have nearly the same weight.
i found out that sabrina don't like yam.
i found out that receipts can magically disappear and reappear again suddenly (haha)
i found out that it is fun to hang out with them. :D

and i found out that lemons have seeds.

hohoh maybe an airport date with huixi on sat. To study.
cos we cant study at home -.-

Test

2010-07-20T21:12:00.002+08:00

The next time i go to the doctor check-up and if the doctor ever asked me to take a pregnancy test again, im gonna scream.

-.-

Mum actually laughed when the doctor asked to take a pregnancy test.
Ahahaha
I laughed too.

NOOOOO

2010-07-19T22:02:00.002+08:00

NOOOO JOE COLE MOVED TO LIVERPOOL.
IM FREAKING SAD RIGHT NOW.

D:

Black and White

2010-07-18T20:29:00.002+08:00

Hmm a random title. Ahahahahahaha but that sums up how im feeling right now.

Im going to school tmr, despite for the fact that i have MC but i don't care. I can't really afford to miss out on lessons again.
Promotionals is like what.. 3 months?
Short period of time man. And i did not experience the "exam condition of JC yet" so im at a disadvantage right?
I wish i have self-discipline. Bleargh.

Changed blog song after a week as promised.
Someone who cares by three days grace. Well it is nice, hahaha to those who like the genre. But im sure everyone can relate to it cause im pretty sure everyone feels that way before.

Am i right? Or not? Hmmmm.

Im having mixed emotions. Mixed feelings. I don't know whether im sad or happy.
I don't know if i feel like laughing or crying.
I don't know what emotions im feeling right now.

To the point that i can no longer know what im feeling.
Emotionless? Hmmm not quite so.

More to denial.
and fear.

And desire for acceptance.

I should eat my dinner now. Heh Till next time.

Platinum

2010-07-16T23:02:00.003+08:00

Well maybe you can't believe it.
I can't believe it either. I'm spending my time playing pokemon platinum and maths hurhur.
Yes people, pokemon. Maybe because i'm dead bored?
But im totally faster my bro man. In less than 2 weeks, i had already defeated 7 gyms..

okay anyway, i received MC till 26th July. Can you believe that? Hahaha.
And Im excused from CCA till 28 August. Another shocker.
The thing is.. CCA standown on 25 August.. which means practically im gonna miss out everything.
Which i don't want too.
So im gonna find some loopholes so that at least i can go for cca. gahh.
and oh im not going to use my mc fully.
Gonna come back next week. Cant afford to miss out on anything. :/

Anyway Pro Evolution Soccer 2011

Video Games | Pro Evolution Soccer 2011 | Debut Trailer

XBox 360 | Playstation 3 | Nintendo Wii

Let's see if this one can be FIFA 2011.
Personally, i have been more comfortable with FIFA these few years.
I still can't get a hang on PES 2010 but im totally comfortable with FIFA 10.

Hmmm but let's see how it goes this year.
maybe PES will rise, or FIFA will maintain. Hmmmm

Only one way to find out..

Im gonna try out both.

Added two more games to my list. Hohoho.
This gonna be fun.

Freak.

2010-07-13T20:31:00.003+08:00

Damn it
Sudden pain.

I should had watched what i eat.
Must really listen to my mum next time. Argh.

Freak.
I don't wanna miss school again. Argh.

Freakfreakfreak.

And it's over.

2010-07-12T21:09:00.002+08:00

The champions are Spain.
Congrats to them. (:
They played well. They deserved it.

Okay, so some of their players do have attitude faces, but i musnt judge a team by faces =.=
But congrats! Although the goal is late...

Anyway, this means the end of FIFA World Cup 2010. It has been a great one month. Full of suprises.
Thomas Muller take away the Golden Boot Award and Best Youngest Player of the tournament.
Diego Forlan take away the Golden Ball Award, aka best player of the tournament.
Spain are the champions.
Holland Runner up.
And Germany third.
Kudos to Uruguay too.

It might be the end of the world cup but i decided to change blog song to the world cup song as a memory. Maybe for a week or something (:

Well, goodbye world cup. It has been lots of fun. You come once every four years. Im gonna miss you.
I shall wait for another four years. World Cup 2014.

Well that if..we pass 2012.

Final Match

2010-07-12T04:24:00.002+08:00

Extra time.

However the match.. pissed me off.
I wake up early to see players playing footbsll, not see players kicking each other.
So many fouls man.

This is not football. This is foulball.

May the best team win.

A taste of freedom..or not

2010-07-10T22:34:00.003+08:00

Today is the first day i finally went out after 2 weeks of imprisonment.
Nahh kidding. After two weeks of recovery.
Well, i have to persuade my mum though. And she let me off. :D

First, it's haircut time! Well no different actually. I guess a bit shorter? Haha
Two hairdressers had to do my hair. -.- My hair must be a trouble then.
Remind me during my stay at the hospital, when 5 doctors are in charge of me. =.=

anyway, after that meet aiha, who shouldnt be meeting me but yea. Okay anyway, we eat and walked around the malls at tampines. Wanted to by bag, but the colour is pink so no thanks..
Wanted to buy clothes, but.. i dont think it is important now.
Check out game store to see any new releases, well not quite.
So.. i spent on... FOOOOOOOD :D

Hohoho aiha, we have awesome stomachs eh? Thank my aura! xD

Prezels! or is it pretzels? But yummyyy

Who doesnt love donuts? Guess which one is mine?

And chocolates to end it all..

Oops there is no picture of the japanese food we ate. Oh wells.

Satisfy my cravings. Not all. I still want Kfc breakfast.

And the school food. Hahahaha.

And brother brought me cheese fries! While mum and dad brought me jackfruits.

Yay :)

The Ultimate Horror

2010-07-09T18:18:00.002+08:00

It scared the hell out of me.
it's freaky. It's scary. It haunts me at night as well.
Every night I see the figure, taunting me, mocking me.
It makes my hair rise. It makes the night feel chilly..
It's causing me to have lack of sleep. It's affecting me deeply.
Cos really.. it's scary.. it's scary... the figure. that figure.
It nearly make me had a heart attack..
Defintely not the for the faint-hearted..
The ultimate horror.. haunting me now..in the darkness...

and it is... my hospital bills.

Hey, I am not exagerrating. It is the truth.
It is scary.
Honestly, if I have to pay it myself, my 17 years of savings will be gone.

But hey, all hope is not lost. There is still the light. I can still see the light...

Thank god there are government subsidies.
But hey, half of my savings will still be gone.
Which leads to me to the other light...
Thank god there is medisave.

When i turn 18, i won't want to be admitted again.
I might be bankrupt.

screw you insurance company.

The ultimate horror alright. Be in my shoes.

Contrast

2010-07-08T19:09:00.002+08:00

you need darkness for light to exist.
yup definitely true. without darkness you wouldnt be bothered to search for the light.
you dont need the good guys if there is no bad guys.
yup, darkness is important.

darkness creates light. they need each other.

my agony is your joy.
my tears will be your smile.
my death brings you life.
my love will be your hatred.
my anxiety brings you peace
my pain brings you calmess.
my laughter brings you tears.
my happiness is your sorrow

your agony is my joy.
your tears will be my smile.
your death brings me life.
your love will be my hatred.
your anxiety brings me peace.
your pain brings me calmness.
your laughter brings me tears.
your happiness is my sorrow.

get what im trying to say?
opposites co-exist.

there will be no hatred if there is no love.
there will be no joy if there is no sorrow.
there will be no light, if there is no darkness

get it now? hmmm.
im in an irritated mood (:
that's why, my post, end up like this.

take care peeps.

Down

2010-07-07T21:17:00.002+08:00

Feeling kinda down. No idea why. Hmm maybe it is just my emotions.
It explains everything.

Hmmm, im tired of all this actually.

Sooner or later, you're gonna hate it.

Im turning into someone i dont want to be..

Reality

2010-07-07T19:56:00.002+08:00

Reality had sink in. I realised I have to work really hard for promos.
Cos i have no mid-years to back me up.

Argh. Okay so i did maths yesterday and GP just now.
Im still not back in school. I think im getting school sick.
And i have cravings.
For canteen food.

So i guess im studying and when i get tired of it, i watch the mentalist online.
I just wanna go back to school.
Like seriously.

Cause distractions here are strong..

Oh well, anyway, i woke up early for world cup last night.
And Holland win! :D
I love you Arjen Robben ^^
Nah Van de Vaart. Haha. Or maybe Sneijder. Kuyt aint bad as well. Van Bommel ^^

I want Germany to win tonight. Ozil. Klose. Lahm. Podolski. bastian schweinsteiger.
Too bad Muller cant play. :/
Oh well.
But i shall not openly support them.

Cos usually, those i support end up losing..
Well i guess I won't mind Spain winning..

Well we'll see. We'll see. :/

Parasite Eve: The 3rd Birthday

2010-07-05T11:28:00.002+08:00

Omg whats wrong with my previous post?
Sounds so emo-ish.
Lol, sounds not me :/
Okay maybe its me, who had just feel like letting it all out.. okay nvm.
heh

Today is Youth Day, but I can't go out cos im still recovering. Sad. :/
Suppose to go LAN with Wei Jie, Jonah, You Liang, Shazny they all.
But yea i still can't go out. -.-
So you guys have fun! :D

Im considering replaying AC2 again, since my cousin ask me continue from his save file.
Cos he is lazy. So yea i guess I should :/
For now, what im doing is finding all the glyphs. Im bored :D

Anyway, another trailer.

Square Enix graphics and designs never fails to amaze me.
Will be looking forward to this.

Sometimes I feel like im a failed gamer. -.-

Rescue Me

2010-07-04T15:24:00.003+08:00

Moodswings always sucks man.
Im trying so hard to maintain being happy man. lol. I rather not have moodswings man.
It's affecting my life.
But I can't help it man. I can't control moodswings -.-
Gahhh.
And it aint helping that my tummy is giving me problems. Gahhh.

I looked at the mirror and i think im ugly.
Okay, WTH IS WRONG WITH ME -.-
Medication is making me go bonkers man. Argh.

Rescue Me By Digital Summer

So maybe I’m the one that needed saving
Someone to rescue me from myself
And now the memories are slowy fading
Wish I could see me through the eyes of someone else

I remember the look in your eyes
When you were reaching out to me
And I tried to help you
But now im haunted by the hero that I couldn’t be

So maybe I’m the one that needed saving
Someone to rescue me from myself
And now the memories are slowy fading
Wish I could see me through the eyes of someone else

I drown out my thoughts now
As pathetic as it may seem
So just take it away now, help me how
I just stood there frozen by your screams

(chorus)
I know I shouldn’t blame myself
For what I cannot control
It seems so impossible to ever let this go

So maybe I’m the one that needed saving
Someone to rescue me from myself
And now the memories are slowy fading
Wish I could see me through someone else
Maybe I’m the one that needed saving
Can you help me now
Trapt in this life with no way out
Sometimes I wish I was someone else
Someone else

Gahhh feeling emo-ish. Damn. Nono stop emo-ing. stop. stop. stop.
I think i need fresh air. :/

Oh wait, I cant go out. Lol.

Blessed

2010-07-03T15:15:00.002+08:00

When you love someone, you have to learn to let them go;
I had let you go;
So don't come back to me;
Like as though I wanted you again;
I have loved once;
But I won't again;
Cos I've learned to hate it;
I've learned to hate it;

Hahahaha this is gonna be part of a song im gonna make. I will edit though.(:
Sounds emo? Unfortunately, it is just me ;)

I came to realise that in life what you want isn't really what you get.
What you really need, you don't really see.
We are all blinded by our desires, seeking, searching.
That we forgot those that we already have.

And when we didnt get what we want, we are shattered, broken.
But the one that will fix us, is those that we already have.
Treasure them, before it's too late.

Today I've came to realise that I'm blessed to have such good friends. Such good classmates. Such good family.
Today I've came to realise that all of them are so important to me.
And because of that, I'll be there for them.
All of them.

Cos we will never walk alone.
We were never alone.
You will never walk alone.
COs you are never alone.
(:

Solitary Man

2010-07-02T11:58:00.002+08:00

When boredom strikes, you do weird stuffs. Bleargh.
4th attempt of drawing lionel messi. Another failure.
Maybe I have an infinity towards him. No idea why. I can draw Rooney and Lampard but just not Messi.
I always havw problems when it comes to Messi. Why?? I really want to sketch him you know..
Oh well, shall move on to Villa next. Wish me luck?

So my life literally revolves around eating and sleeping now.
Who says recovery was an easy thing?
Trying to recover is one thing, being stuck at home is another.
I can't go out. I can't play with the baby. I can't play my guitar.
I tried gaming but but I can't do it for too long cause I'll end up dizzy.

So now I ended up sketching. And writing songs. And watching Criminal Minds online.
And I'm eating way too much.

Since I mentioned Criminal Minds, I watched the episode titled Solitary Man.
To see that kind of father who exists, who literally murder to find the perfect mum for his little girl just evoked a certain emotion in me.

You guys should watch Criminal Minds. It can make you cry.
It makes the emotionless me cry :/
Even though it's a crime show, it is well... emotional at times.

Hmmm oh well I'm gonna work on that new song I half created. The melody is in my head.
But my music skills sucks (:

It will be called... Solitude.

Till next time.

Miss

2010-06-30T21:31:00.003+08:00

I miss school.
I miss my friends.
I miss my class.
I miss taking exams.
I miss the stress.
I miss walking around normally.
I miss the canteen food.
I miss the cafe food.
I miss gaming
I miss carrying the baby.
I miss playing my guitar.

:(

Recovery

2010-06-29T12:05:00.002+08:00

Im bored at home, but yea I have to recover :(
I can't blog much cos im supposed to rest..

But anyway thanks to those who visited me when i was in hospital! Really made my day man. It was really lonely there ah. :/
Especially my relatives that came non- stop o.o
And friends who ame by as well! Thanks Aiha, Asyraf,Pearllyn, Sabrina and Zainal!

And thanks for all the well wishes!

Gonna be Mia for 2 weeks. -.-
I will blog more when i recover.
Cos the srugery is making me tired easily.
Haha (:

All the best for mid-years!

Anxiety

2010-06-25T23:09:00.002+08:00

Ah Great, having a fever now. Great just great.
I have a half injured left hand and now a fever. And yes I injured myself while babysitting.
A lot of things seem to be happening as mid years are nearing in two days. Is this a good or bad sign?

I rather not know. For now, I'm just going to study.
Completed Econs and Maths. History and GP will be next. I should rest, since Im seriously not feeling well.
But two days left. Anxiety.
Hopefully I get well by tmr, so I can go out and study. And support the debating theme.
For now I'll just pray. And hope.

Sooner Or Later

2010-06-23T21:58:00.003+08:00

I'm dead tired. haha.
Okay today, I actually overslept. Supposed to be in school at 10am. I woke up at 9.15am.
How the hell was I supposed to get ready and reached school by 10am? So i was panicking. Sms Letty telling her I just woke up, cause we are supposed to have consultation with Mr Lim.
Letty urged me to come, since she'll be alone, so yes I did. I don't want her to wait long, so I took a cab. 7 dollars. Expensive :/
I arrived exactly at 10am. YAY.
Only to find out that Mr Lim has not arrived. -.-
So yes we studied for a while, and Mr Lim only xame at 10.45am. Haha. Nice man. Nice.
Anyway after consultation, hang out with Letty, she was saying Christiano Ronaldo was cute. Well, I used her Iphone and showed her pictures of Villa and Silva. LOL. And Messi as well. But she said Messi isn't cute. :( Im Sad. HAHA
After that she headed home while I stay on for MLEP.
The journalism course was useful. Gonna be a journalist for one month :/

And oh, Letty made me found out something. I am a Yes girl.
And it is so true. O.O

Sooner Or Later By Breaking Benjamin

I want a normal life
just like a new born child
I am a lover hater
I am an instigator
You are an oversight
Don't try to compromise
I'll learn to love to hate it
I am not integrated

[Pre-Chorus]
Just call my name
You'll be okay
Your scream is burning through my veins

Sooner or later you're gonna hate it
Go ahead and throw your life away
Driving me under, leaving me out there
Go ahead and throw your life away

You're like an infantile
I knew it all the while
You sit and try to play me
Just like you see on tv
I am an oversight
Just like a parasite
Why am I so pathetic
I know you won't forget it

[Pre-chorus]

Sooner or later you're gonna hate it
Go ahead and throw my life away
Driving me under, leaving me out there
Go ahead and throw my life away

Sooner or later you're gonna hate it
Go ahead and throw our life away
Driving me under, leaving me out there
Go ahead and throw our life away

Throw our life away
Ooooo
Throw our life away

Hohohoho I like the part I am a lover hater and I'll learn to love to hate it. xD
AWESOMMMEEEEEE. :D

Axis Vs Allies

2010-06-22T19:30:00.002+08:00

I am Albert Speer. Hohohoh.
Ok I am not, but that was my role just now during the competition.
It was a strategy game, based on history The Axis Vs Allies. Kinda cool actually. A war strategy game.
But just one thing, I sucks at strategy game. -.-

Anyway, met Shazny, Jonah and Nabil at Aljunied MRT at 7.15 am. Then we headed of to Dunman High and register.
The briefing began and I was like uhhh lost?
Well I'm a last minute replacement so i actually didnt read the rule book -.-

Okay so after that the groups had to pick our roles, randomly. So shazny represent us and draw the lots.. We have to play as Germany, under the Axis.

Oh in case you don't know history, to put it simply, Allies are represent by 3 countries, USA, United Kingdom and USSR (Soviet Union), and based on history, they won the war, so yea they technically they are the good guys.

Axis on the other hand are represented by Germany, Japan and Italy, but in this game, italy isn't part of it so yes only Germany and Japan. So technically, we are the bad guys. -.-

Which came to another point, in the game of Axis Vs Allies, even though it allow us to change the course of history, well, let just say history usually repeat itself.

Okay anyway, since we were Germany, the four of us have to take different roles.
So, Shazny took the role of the political Leader. Yes he was Aldolf Hitler. Well, he control us. Haha
Jonah took the role of the military Commander. He was Joachim von Ribbentrop. Cool name huh. He'll be in charge of military moevements.
Nabil took the role of Foreign Minister. I forgot the name. Was it Joseph Goebbels? but yea he is suppose to play the diplomacy part.
Okay and I took the role of Economic Advisor. I am Albert Speer. And I was suppose to manage the resources, purchase new units all that.

So we began the game. Haha ok we didn't get to the next round.
I think due to this.
We didn't really use the resources that were available in the beginning.
And we were too nice.
What I mean by too nice is.. we stick to an alliance while the others betray us. -.-
So after losing a lot of resources, we decided to go all out war. All combat. Don't care anymore. Manage to destroy a lot of USSR troops and take one of their land.
But it was too late. Haha

It was a nice experience though. It makes me wanna try playing it again, on the computer.
Strategy games. Cool eh. One wrong move can change a lot of things.

But I kinda had fun. (:

I'm A STALKER(:

2010-06-21T20:14:00.003+08:00

Yup, I'm a stalker. HAHA(:
Anyway, today was great. Went out to catch Toy Story 3 with Aiha. At 10.30am. :D
Yes early I know, but it's good, not crowded, but there were A LOT of kids. Since a daycare centre was watching during that slot also. Hohohoh.
The movie was great! Wish could have watch it in 3-D. but oh well, budget. (:
And I'm craving for hotdog bun. Lol.

Anyway, after that Aiha headed to my house, and she help me babysit for a while. Lol. x)
Well AT LEAST, the baby kept still and behaves like a good girl as she sees someone unfamiliar.

Anyway pictures! (:

Hohoho candid. x)

Awww, the baby lie down on aihaa, and play with her hair. awwww~

ATTITUDE FACE. EPIC MAN. HAHAHAHA

Happy family x)

and we love our hair. HAHA

There are more but well, it is just taking pictures session. Hoho.
We did studied! For a while. Ahaha.

I still have not edited my playlist. Gahhh so many things to do.

And I have a competition tmr! Replacing Yi Poh. Team with Shazny, Jonah and Nabil.
Wish me luck! Wish us luck! :D

Anyway, I should get back to history now. Till next time peeps. (:

Digital Summer

2010-06-20T12:00:00.004+08:00

Omg check them out. They are awesome man. Their songs. Their music O.O
Okay maybe because it is my type of music but seriously. I think they are awesome.
Changed my blog song to one of their songs, worth the pain.

Okay, honestly, I literally didn't know anything about this band until one of the band members was following me on twitter.
It was the drummer. So i decided to follow him too. I didn't check them out yet though
That was a week ago. But today, I suddenly had the urge to check them out, and omg they are awesome. Like really. O.O

Broken

Sweet Misery

One More Day

So yes I shall post 3 songs today. Hah O.O
I'm glad I check them out today.
It make my day. HAHA :D

Hohohoh (: Anyway going with family later. (:
Father's Day lunch.
Happy father's day!
Love ya dad. Love you(:

And after that I shall study History :D

Memory Lane

2010-06-19T18:25:00.003+08:00

I am not happy. Hur hur.
Okay nevermind about that.
Anyway yesterday was fun! (:

Studied with Sab, Pearki and Aiha! Hohohoh :D
We did maths, although my concentration span is limited somehow.
Heh. x)
It was really fun hanging out with them. Miss the old times lahhh.
We studied at BK simei. Hohohohoh, stumbled upon Caleb, Warren, Qing Le and Xuan Jun.
They were preparing for the bbq. x)

Anyway, studied till 4plus like that, then headed off to Sab's house.
Her house is so comfortable man. Make me feel like sleeping O.O
I headed of earlier at around 5pm, while pearki and aiha stayed on. Awww, I wanna hang out with you guys again! :(

Anyway at 5pm, meet Joseph, then we head off to the bbq.
We walked to the Savannah. Lol and reached at around 5.15. Ahahaha
Ranjanni, Reshvin, Rasi and Rukku was the girls there.
The guys was Jon, Jacob, Anura, Xuan Jun, Caleb, Qing Le, Warren and Joseph.
hohohoh. Jonye and Jie Yao came later.
And then Yong Han and Rui Jie came.

Well, arguing was fun. Caleb said i was chiong-ing at BK. I wasn't! Haha okay maybe I was.
I argued with Warren about babysitting. And argued with Rui Jie about history. LOL.
Manage to catch up with the others. Xuan Jun is taking H2 History. Im shocked O.O

Anyway I left at 6.30 Need to go off.
I didn't manage to take any pictures of the bbq. Anyway out of the Savannah, stumbled upon Edna, Jing Yu, Haikal, Asyraf, Yusof and one guy whose name slip my mind. Lol.
Talked to them awhile and then I went off. Hohoho (:

I wished Dorcas was there! Miss her man! :(

Pearki!! :D

Pearki and me! We were boredddd. x)

Candid! x)

Hohoho sab who are you texting? x)

EPIC!!!!!!! xD

I didn't get to take a picture of Aiha! :(
But nvm, on monday I shall stalk her. HAHA :D

Love you guys man!

Future Soldier

2010-06-17T18:42:00.002+08:00

When you're a teenager and you're in love, it's obvious to everyone but you and the person you're in love with.

John Scalzi

Hmm. I never knew O.O
Hohohoho. I've realize I've been hiding a lot of things. A lot of things had been bothering me, but I'm just keeping quiet. Hmm :/
Oh well, perhaps there is no use blogging about it or complaining about it because things won't be solved.
Don't worry, I'm still happy. I won't let the things happening around me to affect my life. :D
Two things happen today.
THE BABY CRAWLED :D. it is such a heartwarming moment. Seriously. I feel like crying. HAHA.
And... I've completed econs! HAHAHA :D
Which means, history tmr. -.-

Anyway, can't wait for tmr! Meeting Aiha, Sab and Pearki! :D
And maybe going for 4/7 bbq. maybe.

Anyway, like as said yesterday, another video! Ghost Recon! (:

Ghost Recon: Future Soldier E32010 trailer

Ghost Recon: Future Soldier Gameplay

Another Title from Ubisoft.
I think I'm falling in love with Ubisoft games.
Hohohohoh
:D

Anyway, my hands feel so cold now.
It's getting numb :/

Oh yea I changed blog song, again.
Ahahah, I can't seem to stay with one song -.-
Till next time peeps! :D

Rising

2010-06-16T12:54:00.004+08:00

Never deprive someone of hope; it might be all they have.

H Jackson Brown Jr

Hohoho, another quote to start of the post. (:
Changed Blog Song! Okay it is not breaking benjamin.
Time to go back to classics! Scorpions people! :D
Damn, I should be studying, but here I am infront of my laptop watching Ubisoft Press Conference. -.-
But it's kinda cool actually. Especially Ghost Recon: Future Soldier.
Like seriously, really future soldiers. Will post up the trailer another day.
But for now, Check this out!
[Warning: those that hate blood, although it's not real, and it's not much anyway but still, if just don't like these kind of stuffs then dont watch. Haha]

Metal Gear Solid: Rising

Will be release on PS3 and Xbox360. That is what GameTrailer states.

Anyway, I found the trailer cool, and kinda cute, and abit funny at the last part.
Haha.
Cut at will.
You Will Cut.
What Will You cut?
The part where they show the watermelon is just funny to me. No idea why.
I mean the trailer basically shows cutting. Like yea cutting. And then the cutting of the watermelon. From violent to soft. Kinda cute. Haha

Hohoho anyway I want a PS3 like this. So many cool games :/
But oh well, impossible dream. Sigh.
And after watching most of the conferences, i noticed the gaming world is changing.
I feel the emphasis is more on casual gamers, seeing all the new technology they had introduced.
Haha anyway.
I realised I've been posting a lot of trailers. Yesterday was Assassin's Creed: Brotherhood. Two days ago was Deus Ex: Human Revolution.
And Today is Metal gear Solid: Rising.
Wonder what tmr will be. Maybe Ghost Recon. Maybe Driver.Haha we'll see.

Anyway I should study now! I wanna complete econs today.
Econs has succesfully overthrown Maths the position of my greatest enemy.
So Econs, Im gonna study you like mad. Heh.

Till next time! (:

Brotherhood

2010-06-15T18:53:00.004+08:00

All love that has not friendship for its base, is like a mansion built upon sand.

;Ella Wheeler Wilcox

Just A quote to start of a post. (:
Anyway, ahh today is not productive at all can. I just feel too tired. I did maths, and then i slept. Horrible me. -.-
It seems a lot of people are overseas. And Im stuck in this island.
I can't even remember the last time I went overseas. I bet my passport already expired.
:D
Anyway I am happy! HAHA. Well isn't that good. I feel like writing a happy song.
But i still wanna write an emo song :D

Anyway check this out!

Assassin's Creed: Brotherhood Trailer

Assassin's Creed: Brotherhood Gameplay Demo

More Assassin's Creed: Brotherhood News & Previews

Assassins Creed: Brotherhood Multiplayer Trailer

Video Games | Assassin's Creed: Brotherhood | E3 2010: PS3 Multiplayer Trailer (Stream)

XBox 360 | Playstation 3 | Nintendo Wii

Multiplayer Demo

Video Games | Assassin's Creed: Brotherhood | E3 2010: Multiplayer Walkthrough

XBox 360 | Playstation 3 | Nintendo Wii

Platforms will be: PS3. XBox360 and PC.
Release Date: November 16 2010

NOVEMBER 16! NOVEMBER 16! NOVEMBER 16! :D I'm excited can.
haha I better start saving up. A lot of cool games will be releasing during that month.
:D

And the multiplayer function is a bit funny. Like a lot of people wanting to kill each other o.o
But anyway, still exciting! xD

Ahh i'm excited now. The gameplay looks similar, but more uhh faster?
i read about it and they said the enemies are more fastr and aggressive.
And once Ezio reached Rome, he could command and train his own army of Assassins
Read this article.

http://xbox360.ign.com/articles/109/1096896p1.html

And you can upgrade the cite of Rome itself!

Okay, the US release date is November 16.
Don't know about Singapore.
Should be around the same right?
:/

Well, whatever it is, shall wait for it.
E3 2010 really have a lot of cool updates. :D

Human Revolution

2010-06-14T19:46:00.005+08:00

Changed blog song. Haha i'm a loser.
I changed it to a Jpop song at first, FF13 Theme Song, but barely few minutes, I changed it back to Breaking Benjamin. -.-
Gosh see how I'm into the genre.
Heh, and added some icons on top and below my blog!
Well basically, the top ones are the games I had either played, still playing, or dream of playing.
And below are the bands I like.

Anyway, checked this out.

Video Games | Deus Ex: Human Revolution | E3 2010: Trailer

XBox 360 | Playstation 3 | Nintendo Wii

Hmm no idea why I post this.
Saw it and think it's cool. it is a sequel which means there is a 1st one which I have not played since I haven't heard about this game. Hurhur i'm new at gaming okay.
But now I know.
Releasing on fall 2010 which most probably be November/December 2010.
Which make me realise something.

Why a lot of games are releasing on Nov/Dec 2010?

Assassin's Creed: Brotherhood
Final Fantasy 14
Call Of Duty: Black ops

There are more. I just don't feel like typing them all.

Which means, i'm gonna be broke during the month of Nov/Dec.

I better start saving> :/

Ancient Rain

2010-06-13T20:02:00.007+08:00

Hohoho this is actually my 301 post. (:
Anyway went to watch the Karate Kid with family yesterday. Free tickets. Haha
The movie was awesome. Have I say that Jaden Smith is just so adorable?
He is 12 though. LOL. But the theme song is sang by Justin Bieber. The only down side. But not bad lah, the song okay, quite catchy.

We bought a $23 World Cup Popcorn combo and got free stuffs which includes an inflated ball. :D

MESSI AND VILLA!!! :D :D :D :D :D :D :D GOGOGOGI

Must a be a dream come true to actually got a world cup ball x) unfortunately we have no pump to give air to it. HAHA

Seems like I'm promoting Addidas

New game. :D thanks mum/bro. HAHA

I guess I'm feeling high. I realised I shouldn't be emo, I mean no use being emo. I'm not the only one in this world having problems. There are those having a hard life.

So I should chill, and just relax, and go along with the flow. So what if I'm burdened with problems? I shouldn't bring people down with me.

Because this is life (: It rarely goes your way. Hohoho.

But I still want to write emo songs! HEH

And study day today is productive can. COMPLETED ECONS ORANGE BOOK :D

So I really end up studying today okay :D

Shall start on the blue book soon. (:

Anyway, Check this out. First time I'm seeing their softer side.

Usually theirs songs are hardcore. Really hardcore. Not that I mind.

But this one is nice. It is quite melancholy.

Screw- Ancient Rain

Silent Scream

2010-06-11T19:51:00.005+08:00

Haha, I've been multi-tasking today.
Well basically, I tried to juggle babysitting and studying at the same time.
Ladt time it was an epic fail. I can't take my eyes off the kids.
Or they will do something. At this rate, I can only study after 6, which unfortunately is the time when my brain shuts down.
But luckily today, somehow I managed to study and babysit at the same time. Stressful as it is. I don't really have a choice.

Anyway, WORLD CUP TONIGHT!!!! :D :D :D
The moment we all have been waiting for. Okay not everyone. Haha
Anyway, here is the new song i created.

Silent Scream

I am a pretender
In front of you
I kept smiling, I kept laughing
Even when I'm about to break

My heart aches only
When I see your smile
I'm watching from the sidelines
You were never mine

Watching the sky,hoping
Seeing the stars, wishing
The tears are now falling
I care no more. I care no more

So many times I'm in pain
But you just never care
Somehow my tears can't be seen
And you can't hear my silent scream

They asked me if I'm alright
I lied and said that I'm okay
Cos' you can't hear my silent scream
You can't hear my silent scream

I had always watched your back
But you never know
And now I'm no longer needed
I guess it is time for me to go

Watching the Sky, hoping
Seeing the stars, wishing
Now my tears are falling
I care no more. I care no more.

So many times I'm in pain
But you just never care
Somehow my tears can't be seen
And you can't hear my silent scream

They asked if I'm alright
I lied and said that I'm okay
Cos you can't hear my silent scream
You can't hear my silent scream

And now that i'm forgotten.
I saw your tears.
I saw you breaking apart
I used to care, but now I don't.

Cos I'm no longer watching the sky,hoping
No longer seeing the stars, wishing
My tears are no longer falling.
Cause I care no more, I care no more.

And now that you are in pain
But I just can't seem to care
And now your tears can be seen
But I can't hear your silent scream

I asked you if you're alright
You said you are not okay.
But oh sorry, I can't hear your silent scream
I can't hear you silent scream

Ohh...
You never heard my silent scream.
I will not answer your silent scream..

Haha I don't know if this is emo.
is it?
Oh well. Feel like writing another one (:

Peace Walker

2010-06-10T13:45:00.003+08:00

Will not be shaken,
And jump into this,
And be persuasive, just carry on.
Make my mind up, to go though this,
Or be firm and sit in silence.

Chevelle; Forfeit

Argh, I'm sick. Again. I realised ever since I entered JC, I keep falling sick. Gah.

Ah. Anyway, I'm fasting today. Don't ask me why. Just feel like fasting o.o
And I've been doing econs since morning, but taking a break now. Played guitar just now, and now I'm just surfing the net. Shall continue later.

Anyway, I wanna post about this today.

More Metal Gear Solid: Peace Walker Videos

Metal Gear Solid: Peace Walker!! :( :( :(

I WANT IT CANNNN :(((((((

D: D: D:

But I've recently bought a game so now don't think I can buy another one :((((
Nooo, why my PSP can't download games? :((((

Argh, nvm shall save up for it!
Ahh so many things I want can.
Prince Of Persia
Metal Gear Solid: Peace walker

and i want a PS3 :(

haha, but don't think i can get a PS3.
My mum actually allowed me that time, but she ask me use my own cash.
I was super happy.

But now she changed her mind -.-

And now my mum and bro ganged up on me to go against my own choice. Haha
So yes, I wont be getting a PS3 -.-

oh wells :(

Anyway, I composed a new song (:
Shall post it next time.
It is called the Silent Scream.

haha Emo much. I should stop Emo-ing.

Hah. I just don't care.

Forgotten Existence

2010-06-09T19:47:00.007+08:00

Pain, without love
Pain, I can't get enough
Pain, I like it rough
'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all

Three Days Grace; Pain

Woah okay, I seems to be angry in the previous post.
Hah, maybe I still am? Hmm who knows.
Anyway, Guitar Camp was awesome. Had fun. It makes me forget things for a while.
Even if I got blisters, body ache and a a cold now, but it was all worth it. (:
And Congrats on the new EXCO members and the selected section leaders! (:

But like I said before the camp, once the camp is over, everthing will get back to me.
And yes it did.
And it ain't getting any better. It seems to be getting worse. Gahh. Oh wells.
Just be strong I guess.

Just now after the end of camp, went to babysit, as usual (:
I was bored, so I ended up taking pictures with the kids. haha. I uploaded some of them on facebook. But yea, it was a good way of passing time x)
And the baby first word is damn cute.
And she is beginning to crawl!
I bet when she started walking, I will cry, because really it's touching.

Anyway i wrote this song, I think it was last year.

Forgotten Existence

Sitting across the street
Alone as always
The shadow is the only friend
Please, someone, know my name

Someone, anyone
Don't forget my existence
so it won't be lost forever
Please allow me;
let me be at least a memory

An open wound
my crying soul
Can I even be a memory?
I couldn't breathe
my bleeding heart
slowly killing me
As I fall into the shadows
deep into the darkness
concealing me slowly
now im a forgotten existence

I heard a beautiful voice
that leads me to an alley
only then i realised
it was a deadly melody

someone just someone
please remember my existence
so it won't be lost forever
i want to be at least a memory

an open wound
my crying soul
Will I even be a memory?
I couldn't breathe
my bleeding heart
slowly killing me
As I fall into the shadows
deep into the darkness
concealing me slowly
now im just a forgotten existence

Dont forget me..
let me at least be a memory

I haven't add a tune to it, because that time I'm a noob in music.
I think I'm still a noob now, I mean I'm not good with guitar yet.
Maybe I can just try.
Or maybe anyone can help along.

because I sucks in rhythm.
Maybe I just sucks.

Okay, I shall go study econs now(:
Till next time.

Impression

2010-06-08T19:37:00.005+08:00

My impression of you had changed. Totally. Unfortunately.
From good, to bad.

Hopefully it won't get worse.
Maybe it will.

I feel like an idiot to actually expect something

Whatever. I don't care.

Hah. Wonder who I am talking about.
Hmm.. Who knows. Who knows.

Ok whatever.
I promise, tmr after guitar, i WILL rest, and after that i WILL study. After this, holidays will be spent studying.

Argh. Whatever.

Nights people. I should be heading back now.

Polar Opposites

2010-06-07T20:46:00.004+08:00

Haha, I'm babysitting while blogging.
Thank god I brought my laptop. Well the kids are well-behaved so i can afford to do this. Maybe I can still practice guitar. (:

Checked Tpjc.net. No responses for today. I have no idea what the hell I'm waiting for. I doubt any more of those taking art will respond. Okay maybe they are busy.
But truth to be told, from the 31 students, i actually expected more than 9 to respond :/

Oh well. i have to use another method then. I'm begging. Art students, pleaseee respond because it willl reallllyyyyy help with our PW project. It is part of our survey..

Hah. Like anyone will read -.-

Anyway, i was bored two nights ago and decided to watch Black Hawk Down. My bro asked why I chose that movie from all the movies available and I just said, i feel like watching a war movie.
he said im not feminine. Haha.

Like hell I care. I realize my bro and I are polar opposites.

our taste in music are different.
I prefer alternatives/hard rock.
he is more to the pop/sentimental kind. And yes even k-pop.

Our taste in games are different.
I'm more of a hardcore gamer. The games I chose are well, surprising for a girl.
His choice of games are softer. Seriously.

My brother is more easy to approach. Yes he is friendly, and he let people in.
I'm more reserve, distant. And if you don't know me, you may thing I'm cold. Because I don't really open up and let people in.

My brother likes to share his problem. Sometimes he told mum.
well me, let just say I like to bottle things up.

And oh my brother is so experience in relationships. His started dating in sec 3?
Well i lost count of the number of break-ups or if he have found someone new.
but yea i guess I shall not care.

But for me? Well let just say I couldn't be bothered. I mean people say they are in love, but they don't know what love is yet.

And yes, surprising as it sounds, compared to my bro, im more rebellious. haha.
Even when I don't look like one. But if I feel what my parents did are wrong, I will have a say.

So yes. We are polar opposites. But maybe that is why we can relate to each other. Even when we don't understand each other's world, we accept the differences. And take it as a new experience.
maybe that is why we get along.

Because we are trying to understand each other's world

Shall update about guitar camp after the entire camp finish.
Shall continue with my work.

Adios people (:

Project Work

2010-06-06T10:05:00.007+08:00

Somewhere far beyond this world
I feel nothing anymore

Breaking Benjamin; Dear Agony

I officially don't like PW.
Hmm.
And being a group leader is hard.
I think I'm a terrible one.

Anyway, thanks to all those that responded to my online message.
Although not even half responded, but still thank you.
And the number that responded is lesser than the number that had read the message.
haha, I shouldn't had checked, but still thank you.
And thanks to those that actually added in some extra words.

It actually drives me on.

I shall wait till few more days perhaps, till i collate the data.
Hopefully more will respond. Hopefully. It seems I've been hoping alot nowadays.
Hah. All i do is hope.

I made a promise last night that I won't game today.
But who cares, I shall break it. Time for Ninja Blade.
Because I need to smash some buttons.

Because I freaking can't take it anymore..

And guitar camp tmr.
haha. I must try to feel better by tmr.
I don't want to go to a camp like a lifeless soul.

I shall make another promise. Tmr, I'll forget everything.
After camp. it will all get back to me.

Yea it will..unfortunately.

Untitled

2010-06-05T12:49:00.002+08:00

ARGGHHHHHHHHHGHH

ARGH
ARGHH
ARGHHH

ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

Dreams

2010-06-05T10:39:00.004+08:00

What if I say I'm not like the others?
(Keep you in the dark)
What if I say I'm not just another one of your plays?
(You know they all... pretend)
You're the pretender
What if I say I will never surrender?

Foo Fighters; The pretender

I've been have weird dreams. Really weird dreams.
Some are well, bloody? Seriously, bloody. I have no idea why.
Others are are just random.
And some are just giving me false hope.

Well, I guess false hope is better than no hope at all.

The bloody one, maybe because I game too much?
But I don't think the games I played are violent. :/
Seriously.

Maybe I should stop gaming for a while.
Yea maybe I should.
Or just play the softer games. Hah.
Softer. I should play pokemon. :/

I think I'm becoming colder.
And I don't like it.

But it is so hard, in these situation.
I want to scream. I want support.

But sometimes, I just don't care.

I don't feel like going for Guitar Camp. Haha.
But maybe it is just because of my emotions today.
I guess I'll be better on monday.

The pursuit of happiness is a most ridiculous phrase; if you pursue happiness you'll never find it

C.P Snow; English novelist & Scientist 1905-1980

Tranquility and Happiness

2010-06-04T16:08:00.005+08:00

The pursuit of happiness is a most ridiculous phrase; if you pursue happiness you'll never find it

C.P Snow; English novelist & Scientist 1905-1980

It's amazing that babysitting actually brings me some peace, and some joy. These few days my emotions were negative, but thank you, thank you.
I actually seek comfort from the kids. And they never fail to actually do it.
Even if they always make my blood boil at times, it such joy. This feeling.
I'm not a mother, but maybe, slowly, I'm learning how mothers feel.

Children innocence. They smile, they laugh, thinking everything is okay, nothing is wrong, life is just about fun and games.
It is sad that one day they will be awaken by a harsh reality we all will face, one day.
But for now, their innocence is what bring smiles to others.

Thank you.

Going to Manifest later with Sab and Nadia (:
Hope it would make me forget things for awhile too.

So tired, tired of waiting, tired of waiting for you.
So tired, tired of waiting, tired of waiting for you.
I was a lonely soul, I had nobody 'til I met you.
But you, keeping me waiting, all of the time
What can I do?

Green Day; Tired Of Waiting

So Tired

2010-06-03T17:47:00.003+08:00

so tired, tired of waiting, tired of waiting for you.
So tired, tired of waiting, tired of waiting for you.
I was a lonely soul, I had nobody 'til I met you.
But you, keeping me waiting, all of the time
What can I do?

Green Day; Tired Of Waiting

Yea, I can't survive without blogging for one week, because i just need somewhere where i can release all this...emotions or frustrations or whatever it is called.

Things have not settled yet. Doubt it will anytime soon.
So tired of it. I wanna scream. I wanna cry. But no I can't. I have to be strong.

The kids didn't come today. At least there is a break. No babysitting for today. A break.

And today isn't any better.
ICT? Well, waste of time. It is useful. Really it is.
But for me? It wont. Why?
I won't say. Infer.

Pissed. Pissed. Pissed. Pissed. Pissed. Pissed.
Argh.
There is so much things I wanna say. So much things I wanna let out. So much.

So much.
I can't seem to be able to do anything.
As always.

Assassin's Creed II

2010-05-29T16:09:00.006+08:00

I will post about this today.
After much sweat and blood spilled, I've completed the game.
Okay, maybe not much blood was involved, but blood is still involved.

If I remember correctly, my bro was the one that buy this game for me. I remember choosing it at the game store, the same day my brother brought Pokemon Platinum.
See the contrast. Nevermind about that.
But somehow I can't remember the exact date. Oh well I have bad memory anyway.
It was after I enter JC i think.
because I know I only got it AFTER I have gotten a laptop.
February perhaps.

Anyway, when I 1st tried it out, I sucks. I wasn't use to laptop controls yet so i actually couldn't complete the 1st mission, which is actually beating ur brother in the race -.-
So I let it rot, until I decided to try again a month later, and yes i managed to do it.
Until some of my game data disappear.
It was after Ezio's family got killed that my data went missing.
So due to my laziness, as always, I did not want to replay again, so came my choice of lending it to my friend.
And I did not play it until I came to find out that you could actually play without the disc. which was maybe 4 weeks ago.
Anyway, I started playing again and began to like it. I actually enjoyed it. Even when I have to replay it again, it seems more enjoyable than before.
And start 2 weeks ago, my addiction came. I actually played every, after I studied of course. Because once you played, you would want answers.
And answers was what Ezio seek.
The missions were getting harder, and my gaming skills still sucks like hell.
The killing of the 9 lieutanants really took up a lot of my time, sweat and blood.
I keep failing but I tried again and again, thinking of new ways and methods, even asking a classmate for help. Yes, thanks Wei Jie for giving tips. Haha
But I still did it in the end. And I realise, i was actually thinking while gaming.
But it was worth it. Until I'm nearing the end, I realised I made a mistake, by not collecting the Codex Pages.
I wanted to give up, as always. But somehow I didn't, maybe because of my addiction, and I manage to collect all the codex pages yesterday, and went to Rome, and complete the final mission and defeated the spaniard

The ending, well, let just say, instead of answering questions, it gives me more questions.
Yes, things were left unanswered. More mysteries appeared
but at least it confirmed one thing, there will be an AC3.

And when it is released, I'll make sure I get it.

Because Assassin's Creed is one unique game.
It actually uses my brain.

It'll be on my favourite list.

And also waiting list. (:

I think I've lost the skills to draw.

Remembrance

2010-05-28T23:37:00.003+08:00

Deliver me into my fate
If I'm alone I cannot hate
I don't deserve to have you
Ooh, my smile was taken long ago
If I can change I hope I never know

Slipknot; Snuff

Visited the cemetery today.
Remembrance.
We went back to our past.
And remember.

I actually rounded the entire Singapore today -.-
Because uncle lend the car, dad decided to drives us around.
And I have no idea why, throughtout the entire journey, i was actually thinking of assassins's creed 2.
Because I saw this open field, that say restricted area and my mind straight away imagine the maps and the guards. -.-
I think i played it too much already.
Well at least, now I completed it already.

So ninja blade, it is time for me to conquer you.

I'm a terrible assassin.
After trying out ninja blade, I realised.
I'm a terrible ninja as well.

We belong nowhere. Do we?

Matchmaker

2010-05-27T21:35:00.003+08:00

My shadow's the only one that walks beside me
My shallow heart's the only thing that's beating
Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me
'Til then I walk alone

Green Day; Boulevard Of Broken Dreams

Letty is playing matchmaker -.-
She keep teasing me.

But no Letty, i am not interested.

I'm not interested in anyone right now.

Or maybe I just couldn't be bothered.

Finally, there is a holday tomorrow.
No school. Yay.

But tomorrow will be a long day.
Yes it will be.

You got yourself into trouble, and got all of us involved. Why?

I supposed I know what I'm suppose to do.

Memories

2010-05-26T19:26:00.003+08:00

Nowhere to run and nowhere to hide
You're scared of the truth, I'm tired of the lies
Cuz who I am, is where you wanna be

Just when I put my guard away
It's the same old story
You left me broken and betrayed
It's the same old story

12 Stones; Lie to Me

I wish memories could be deleted.
Then I wouldn't have to keep remembering all these stuffs i wanted to forget.
Then I wouldn't have to know all these things.
Then I would be able to pretend.
I wouldn't have to remember.
It would be easier.

But somehow, my stupid brain keep playing flashbacks. It's like watching a movie.
But it is not enjoyable.
I don't like it.
I don't like it at all.

It's the same things happening all over again

I want to delete some of them.
But I ain't a computer.

Voiceless

2010-05-25T20:21:00.003+08:00

'cause we all live under the same sun
We all walk under the same moon
Then why, why can't we live as one
'cause we all live under the same sky
We all look up at the same stars
Then why, tell me why can't we live as one

Scorpions, Under the Same Sun

I've lost my voice. So I've been communicating through expression and hand signals these two days.
I shall say, it is a relatively new experiece.
But somehow, only Letty can understand me.
So I gave up and just type everything on my phone.

Anyway since I couldn't speak just now;

Basyir: Eh Rasyidah, I think I've lost your thumbdrive
Me: O_O
Basyir: Really, it is not in my bag. Got important documents inside?
Me: !!!
Basyir: Haha joking la, here.
Me: -.-

Dude, you scared me. -.-
I was damn worried because i remembered, my games are inside my thumbdrive

Anyway good news, my voice came back for humanities week. Hope it won't run away again.

I wish I could help, but I'll never be of any help.

The next visit won't be a happy one.

Miracles?

2010-05-23T22:06:00.004+08:00

Some will learn; many do.
Cover up or spread it out.
Turn around, had enough,
Pick and choose or pass it on.
Buying in, heading for
Suffer now or suffer then.
It's bad enough
I want the fear... need the fear

Chevelle, Vitamin R (Leading Us on)

Vivace over.
Fever seems not to be going down.
Humanities week coming up.
Im losing my voice, how to act?

Found out something from mum.
It never ends....

I'm hoping for a miracle, but miracles never came.

Or maybe they just don't exist.

Idiocracy

2010-05-21T22:40:00.003+08:00

No longer the lost
No longer the same
And I can see you starting to break
I'll keep you alive
If you show me the way
Forever - and ever
the scars will remain
I'm falling apart
Leave me here forever in the dark

Breaking Benjamin- Give Me A Sign

I am an idiot.
Really. Seriously.

I'm sorry.

Great Timing

2010-05-20T14:17:00.004+08:00

So I'll find what lies beneath
Your sick twisted smile
As I lie underneath
Your cold jaded eyes
Now you turn the tide on me
'Cause you're so unkind
I will always be here
For the rest of my life

Breaking Benjamin, What Lies Beneath

I Am Sick. How awesome is that. Great timing right.
Concert in two days and I fell sick. Argh.

Took the pink form just now because really couldn't take it.
When to the doctor straightaway, and yes Letty, by myself. Lol.
Thanks for indirectly accompanying me by texting me. Haha.
There were a lot of people. When i came it was number 16, and i was like 27?
And half an hour later, it was only 20.
1hr 15 mins later, it was my turn.

High temperature.
Stomach flu.
Got MC for two days.
But I'll be coming tomorrow. I should be able to make it.

Mum nagged at me. Say i barely rested so no wonder I fell sick. Haha
and I totally cannot rest now, even though I'm at home.
Because the baby is disturbing me now.
Haha.

Gaming

2010-05-18T21:34:00.004+08:00

I just realised I've been gaming for the past 2 hours :/
There goes my tuesday night.
I still want to play some more.
Haha.

Will update more later.
I wanna gameeeeeeeeee now.

Y O U

2010-05-17T21:12:00.004+08:00

My problems will be for me to solve.
I will not trouble anyone.
because it doesn't involve anyone, neither is it specifically because of anyone.
It is something I must figure out myself.
Wish me luck.

I finally make a choice of not posting much in this blog. This blog will relatively be about my life, or just random posts about songs or games or etc.
it will not contain much emotions.
Unless I can't take it. Haha.
I will post about Starcraft 2 soon :D

Anyway, help Huixi with her artwork just now. She looked so stress lah. :/
So yea, during GP, since Mrs Wee didn't come, sat down with her and help her think of ideas. Letty and Min Min helped out as well.
We decided to brainstorm on some themes, so she has an idea on what to focus on.
Freedom, Peace, Broken, Shatter, Joy are some ideas given.
After much consideration, the idea YOU came up.
SO yea, infer from there. It's kinda unique.
She will have some way to express herself (:

So Huixi, don't worry, if you are stuck, we will be there to pull you up. (:

Anyway, after school went to market. And straight back home to babysit.
I hereby declare.
I can't carry the baby anymore. Really.

Shall do GPP now.
Thanks for sending the stuffs on time guys.
May the journey be smooth for us (:

Mission Failure

2010-05-16T18:11:00.005+08:00

WTH, I cleared my inbox, but i totally forgot that 1 of the message is actually my password for the wireless.sg thingy. Im so pro lahh. -.-

I failed to do maths today. Mission failure. Definitely -.-
Just came back from tuition. I only asked like 2 questions. =X

Anyway, yes, Aiha said I should be positive. And stop troubling myself. And start learning to say No to requests.

Yes Aiha, I will try to change this negative character of mine, and stop troubling myself and learn to say no.
I will try. Haha, but it takes time to change one character.

I've been putting up the lyrics on different blog posts, that I actually forgotten the order of it. Dang.

And bro end up not going "dating" today. He said he rather date the tv, for now. Haha. Hope he find someone better.
He ask if I'm going dating, and im like wth. -.- No, im going tuition.
And I think it is no use to be in a relationship now. And I don't like any person now anyway. Not the right time. At least, to me.
Afterall, I already got Letty x) She will kill me if she sees this.

Which reminds me of a conversation I had with Shahirah Sharin. She suddenly talked about marriage, because that time the teacher went off topic till the topic became about marriage.
She was shocked when I told her I'm supposed to get married by 25 because my mums wants me too and if I didn't have my own choice by then, it will be with the person she chooses.
Which she had already chosen. So yes, I have a suitor.
But I don't think my mum will force me. I mean, I have the right to say no right?
Aiha, I can say no in these situations right? Lol.
And shahirah sharin said something funny after that. i'm not allowed to say it here though. Haha.

Sometimes conversation can be interesting.
Sometimes it leads to misunderstanding.
But that is life. Balanced.

When someone cries, someone is laughing.
When there are tears, there are also smiles
When a life is loss, a new life is born.

This will be my perspective of life.
if it is not too late, I will start from the beginning.

I will be positive. It is never too late.

Unspoken Words

2010-05-15T21:45:00.005+08:00

Some things are better left unsaid.

This blogskin may be temporary. Maybe. If i'm not lazy, i shall find a new one. Or make.
But time isn't on my side.

oh well.
I've completed all my tutorials.
Yesterday.
Don't ask me how or why. I just did it.
Doing tutorials is a good thing when you are not really in a right state of mind.
I guess.

Went to look for the tie and costume just now, with Nadia.
Shopping is really isn't for me.
I totally.have.no.idea.where.to.go.
We took quite awhile. But managed to find everything.
I can't believe it. I'm playing pokemon.
I must really be in the wrong state of mind.

Im tired of being treated like a tool.
Like a piece of ....

Listen to my story.
But no you won't.
Some things are better left unsaid.
Yes it's better.
This will be my untold story.
And I'll be forgotten.
As always.

Panic Prone

2010-05-13T20:20:00.002+08:00

All I want now is some SLEEP. Hah.
When i reached home, i straightaway slept
That will only happen in an ideal world.

Unfortunately, this is not an ideal world.
So when I reached home, i straightaway babysit.
But nvm, the baby make my heart melt.
But I can't afford to carry her anymore. -.-
And she barely sleep for 30 mins. No break. -.-

I spent most of my time in school today stoning or just trying my best not to fall asleep. Since I didn't sleep last night. o.o

Anyway during PE, i went to the hall with Huixi. I haven't change yet.

Mr Samad: HEY! I saw you run yesterday. I saw you play during SPE!

In my mind I was like saying damn cannot escape -.-

I qickly say I haven't change, then he give that laugh. Lol. So yea I did PE, even though my leg kinda pain but I ran slowly. So it should be okay. Rest for like 15 minutes because everything seems to be spinning. I was giddy -.-
But played badminton after that. I sucks. Really :/

Music Of the Day: Panic Prone by Chevelle

Gave in again
The bastard
Can't keep refusing rights
So he'll loan the cash
But the sin
Is on the hands of you

So to care or
Plead silence
Weak hands are calling

There's close enough
And there's too far
It won't change an empty stare
But I can't seem to end
These images
Hauntingly looks like hell

So to care or
Plead silence
Weak hands are calling

To care or
Plead silence
Weak hands are calling

Come, enter the foriegn
Face, all that's shameful
Cheat, may the past find
Out, separating

To care or
Plead silence
Weak hands are calling

To end this
Catastrophic scene
Awake and breathe in

Current Blog song.
Emotive. I supposed

I shall be forgotten

2010-05-12T20:17:00.003+08:00

I shall be forgotten.
I will be forgotten.
it is what I do best (:

Really it is.

Sports Day today. AFTER school. Imagine that.
What is wrong with putting it in the morning?
Curriculum will bw affected but then again i only came to school for one subject just now.
Can't blame the students for being unenthusiastic.
I mean we are tired, and there is still school the next day, and there is work to complete :/

okay anyway Sports Day.
Did the marching thing. Like the part of releasing the balloons. The scene is beautiful. Kinda free.

Ran for 12x100. We gotten 4th. Dissapointed but we tried our best (:
Nasha said I ran quite fast
I didn't really realise. I have no idea who was behind of me and i can't see anyone infront.
Maybe i was in my own world or something.
Because when I ran, it is an awesome feeling.
I seem to forget everything. My problems. My feelings. My confusion.
It is the first tine i love running so much.
Because it makes me feels free...

But, I kinda hurt my leg again. Don't think it is serious though. I am limping.
I wont know, since I don't want to go doctor.
And I didn't tell my family members. lol.
Shall live with it.

I am going to do GPP now. (:
A temporary one. Will discuss the real one with the group tmr.
I mean Mrs Wee wants us to show smth by tmr, so i shall do a temporary one to show her that we did something -.-
Then we will work on the real one

Because I'm the group leader :/ and i bet the rest are tired from sports day, so should let them rest and ask them to just do some minor research.

GPP, i really love you. Seriously :/
Because GPP, you will make me stay up for you.

and happy birthday Bixiang (:
the cake is nice. I know x)

Goodbye

2010-05-11T20:40:00.004+08:00

Goodbye. (:
I shall say goodbye.
To my feelings.
To myself.

Because I want to start fresh.

A day full of thoughts.
Hope it is all worth it.

Some things are best to stay hidden.
I'll never say. Never will.
I will forget about it and pretend i never felt that way.
The feelings will be disposed off. Thrown away.
Because it is for the best.

right?

goodbye. (:

Okay, back to school. I think I injured my leg again.
There is a painful feeling :/

And I must march tomorrow for the opening ceremony, and run for 12x100.
Hopefully my legs will be okay.

Can I be a Memory?

2010-05-10T18:17:00.003+08:00

I supposed today is what you called a bad day?
Well maybe not really. Except for the fact that I waited in school for nothing only to find out that project meeting is cancelled.
Well it is my fault. I should have asked earlier.

Yes I am not okay, I'm just confused.
So many things are on my mind and I don't know what to do. As usual I did what I do best.
I ran away.
I ran away from my whatever my brain in trying to tell me. I ran away from my instinct. I ran away from my feelings.
I'm a coward.

i just can't seem to understand. What do I want really?
In this world, people look at the outer shell, not inner.
it's human factor.

The nice will be used, aas always. So say no. Say no.
We'll be forgotten. Our deeds gone. We nvr really accomplished anything.
But it's our character. We can't help it.
Right?
Can we even be a memory?

Because you can't seem to believe in me as well.
How can i believe in myself?

I yearn for support. But i nvr ask for one.
Because in this small mind of mine.
I don't deserve it.

it is no use breaking down right. I mean nothing will change.
So why show emotions.
Hold it in.
isn't that what I always do?

Maybe I can't anymore.

Im sorry.
Forgive me.

im actually seeking comfort from a 8 month old baby.
But she nvr fails to cheer me up

it is an emotional journey to see her grow up. I supposed.

I'm the Unknown Soldier

2010-05-09T11:19:00.004+08:00

I have no idea what to do right now. I think I will study later. I think.
I've been staring at this laptot screen. But I still have no idea on what to do.
And I've been awake since 5.30.
And I haven't done ANYTHING. :/

Okay, I should switch off this laptop, hide it away somewhere. And do Econs
That is what I'm going to do... later.
Wait, I can't switch off my laptop. I need my laptop to do econs.
But i'll be distracted.

i think i need motivation :/

And yes my hand hurts. -.- didn't tell my parents though. :/
It should be okay by tmr. I supposed.
Going out later. hmm. I feel like sleeping :/
I seriously need motivation then.

And i'll just be a replacement. once you find someone else, i'll be forgotten.
but do me a favour, let me at least be a memory.
Please?

Music Of the Day: Unknown Soldier by Breaking Benjamin

Border line,
Dead inside.
I don't mind,
Falling to pieces.
Count me in, violent
Let's begin, feeding the sickness.
How do I simplify,
Dislocate - the enemy's on the way.

[Chorus:]
Show me what it's like
To dream in black and white,
So I can leave this world tonight.

Full of fear,
Ever clear.
I'll be here,
Fighting forever.
Curious,
Venomous,
You'll find me
Climbing to heaven.
Never mind,
Turn back time.
You'll be fine - I will get left behind.

[Chorus]

Holding on too tight.
Breathe the breath of life,
So I can leave this world behind.

It only hurts just once.
They're only broken bones.
Hide the hate inside.

Oh.

[Very quiet voice:]
Forever ... one
I'll be fine

[Chorus]

Holding on too tight.
Breathe the breath of life,
So I can leave this world behind

If only I can :/

Blue Moon and Crimson Lotus

2010-05-07T21:05:00.004+08:00

It's amazing that the BMT group completed Blue Moon today.
We tried our best...

But then, there is still so much to improve right :/

I don't think i can do it if they didn't prompt me :/

I shall try harder.

Damn, I'm tired. I haven't slept. Seems to forgot all about it.
And I'm bored now.
Stuck in my own room. -.-

PSP is charging. Don't feel like playing DMC.
And I want a PS3 (:

Shall save up. Go for it! :D

Music Of the Day: Guren by Gazette

I posted this before I think. But I shall post it again.
Because it has a hidden meaning (:
And because the rhythm is awesome as well i think o.o
Listen to it :D

I should sleep now, but maybe later.. Adios!

Awake

2010-05-07T04:37:00.002+08:00

Im blogging now at 4.30am in the morning.
I haven't slept yet. Like really.

Because I have a mission to complete today.
history =.=

Humanities dry run yesterday.
From 5pm till like 8pm? -.-
I will become a farmer.

That shall exports sugargane...and cigar -.-
Mr Ali wated us to wear jumpsuits??! -.-
Me and Letty were like...

So in the end we shall just wear checkered shirts, and braid our hair. o.o

Okay I'm feeling sleeping.
But no use sleeping for 1 hour right.
So i shall just stay awake. -.-

Good morning people.
I will be a zombie later (:

Lost Soul

2010-05-04T20:51:00.003+08:00

One word to describe today.
tiring.

Really really tiring. :/
Ended school at around 5plus because of PI and humanities week meeting and need to rush home after that :/
Im so bad at time management man :/
And I'm becoming forgetful. I entered my room and forget what is it that i wanted to do.
Maybe I'm a lost soul.
I barely noticed people nowadays, and my mind seems to be elsewhere :/
And my head keeps hurting.
Last night it feels like splitting.
Maybe I'm not helping myself. Like seriously.

I should start taking care of myself. Haha o.o

Humanities week Dry run this thursday. From 5pm to 7pm.
Like wow.
This week will definitely be pack.
And there is guitar tmr, and I only rememebered some parts :/
And I barely started on History.
And there is a quiz this friday :/

i think im doomed.
Like really.
I should be positive.
I will survive this week. I will.
Come on, I should stop being so pessimistic :/

Goodbye people.
Goodbye o.o

The Man of Iron

2010-05-03T19:03:00.008+08:00

Strange how feelings work.
The more you deny it, the deeper it goes.
The more you want it to be gone, the more you realize it.

But it will never be mutual.
Never.

So we will keep denying and denying, hoping and hoping that it will disappear, but it wont.
And it will never be mutual.

I realize something I shouldn't have.
It's better to keep it hidden.
It's for the best, as always
Because we will never get what we want, what we ask.
Feelings are strange.
Strange.
So it's better to keep it hidden.
Because it is for the best.
For the best.

Watch Iron Man 2 just now.
The movie was okay. Quite action-packed and explosive.
I had fun guys. Thanks(:
We should go LAN next time, after mid-year (:

I feel like vomiting now, as always :/
and the headache is still there.
Argh.
And again, no one is at home :/

And I think I'll be changing blog song soon, because the current song not meant to be is making me think to much :/

Not Meant To Be

2010-05-02T12:26:00.005+08:00

I should hide the feelings.
Because it's for the best (:

I finally completed my homework, which means I'm gonna spend today and tmr revising, practicing guitar and playing devil may cry.

Just downloaded some games to my phone.
Resident Evil, Assassin Creed, Tekken and haha Super Mario.

Tried Tekken just now. Kinda fun. Heh but the keypad is giving me problems.
I must not let my phone suffer :/

Music Of the Day: Not Meant To Be by Theory of A Deadman

It's never enough to say I'm sorry
It's never enough to say I care
But I'm caught between what you wanted from me
And knowing that if I give that to you
I might just disappear

Nobody wins when everyone's losing

It's like one step forward and two steps back
No matter what I do you're always mad
And I, I can't change your mind
I know it's like trying to turn around on one way street
I can't give you what you want
And it's killing me
And I, I'm starting to see
Maybe we're not meant to be

It's never enough to say I love you
No, it's never enough to say I try
It's hard to believe
That's theres no way out for you and me
And it seems to be the story of our lives

Nobody wins when everyone's losing

It's like one step forward and two steps back
No matter what I do you're always mad
And I, I can't change your mind
I know it's like trying to turn around on a one way street
I can't give you what you want
And it's killing me
And I, I'm starting to see
Maybe we're not meant to be

There's still time to turn this around
You could building this up instead of tearing it down
But I keep thinking
Maybe it's too late

It's like one step forward and two steps back
No matter what I do you're always mad
And I, I can't change your mind
I know it's like trying to turn around on a one way street
I can't give you what you want
And it's killing me
And I, I finally see
Maybe we're not meant to be

It's like one step forward and two steps back
No matter what I do you're always mad
And I, baby I'm sorry to see
Maybe we're not meant to be

My current blog song. I kinda like it, maybe because I can relate to it.
Because really, it is not meant to be.

Right?

:/

I can't even understand my own feelings.

Seeing Red

2010-04-30T22:42:00.004+08:00

I'm gonna try hard. Really

It seems that the only tests I can excel in is history :/
Hmm, I should try harder.
For studies, and for CCA.

I guess I've done much "thinking"

-.-

Music of The Day: The Red by Chevelle

When you're singled out,
The red, well it filters through.

So lay down, the threat is real,
When his sight goes red again.
Seeing red again,
Seeing red again.

This change, he won't contain,
Slip away, to clear your mind.
When asked, who made it show,
The truth, he gives in to most.

So lay down, the threat is real,
When his sight goes red again.

So lay down, the threat is real,
When his sight goes red again.
So lay down, the threat is real,
When his sight goes red again.

Seeing red again,
Seeing red again,
Seeing red again,
Seeing red again,
Seeing red again,
Seeing red again,
Seeing red again,
Seeing red....

They say freak...
When you're singled out.
The red, it filters through...

Hmm, I guess I like this song. ALthough some of Chevelle songs are too hardcore for me, but I guess I am able to stand some of them. :/

Maybe my sense of music is weird.
Maybe I am just weird -.-

Goodbye Sleep

2010-04-28T21:13:00.003+08:00

May will be a busy month.

Preparation for Guitar Concert.
Planning of Humanities Week.

Hope the days won't clash. :/ Heh

I discovered something. Really.

I need to continue with my econs essay now.
I should rewrite.
because when i read it, I don't even understand what I'm talking about -.-

and there is still GP.

Goodbye sleep, maybe i'll see you tmr night.

Realization

2010-04-26T18:47:00.003+08:00

Mr Oon said something that made me realise something about myself.
which is.... I tend to keep my emotions inside :/

I ended up doing some thinking. But till now, I still can't find an answer?
Maybe I'm looking for support, maybe I just prefer to take it all in myself.

But judging from what he said, I shouldn't bottled up my feelings, cause in the end I'll be the one suffering.

maybe I should open up more. Maybe I should let go. Maybe I just need someone to talk too. Maybe. Maybe.
Because I'm still unsure.

Sometimes I can't even understand my own feelings.
I prefer to keep a low profile.
I tend to think lowly of myself.
I keep telling myself I don't deserve that. I don't deserve this.
Then what do I deserve?

I should change this pessimistic attitude. Because it is bringing more harm than good.

I want to have confidence, but I never had courage.
I want to have support but I rather not ask for it.
I help others but I don't help myself.

So in the end what is left?
I think I'm not in the right state of mind. Maybe I'm just thinking too much.
Or maybe..

Sometimes I'm just tired of it.

Because in this world, the nice are always forgotten.

Okay enough of my thoughts.
In the end, nothing will really change, will it?

Because I still have no courage.

Put me to sleep Evil Angel

2010-04-24T12:14:00.004+08:00

Someone called the house.
And that someone happened to be my brother's friend
My mum picked it up.

And yes they talked.

Then she told my dad, that their future son in law called.

I am like WTH.

-.-

Music Of the Day: Evil Angel by Breaking Benjamin

Hold it together, birds of a feather,
Nothing but lies and crooked wings.
I have the answer, spreading the cancer,
You are the faith inside me.

No, don't
Leave me to die here,
Help me survive here.
Alone, don't remember, remember.

[Chorus:]
Put me to sleep evil angel.
Open your wings evil angel.

A-ah.

I'm a believer,
Nothing could be worse,
All these imaginary friends.
Hiding betrayal,
Driving the nail,
Hoping to find a savior.

No, don't
Leave me to die here,
Help me survive here.
Alone, don't
Surrender, surrender.

[Chorus]

Oh.
Fly over me evil angel.
Why can't I breathe evil angel?

[Chorus]

Oh.
Fly over me evil angel.
Why can't I breathe evil angel?

Ok i must do GP now.
Then i must study 10 chapters for history
After I must do Econs
and maths

So adios amigos. -.-

As we Dance with the Devil tonight

2010-04-22T19:45:00.004+08:00

I'm in a crappy mood. I think it is because of the coffee.
It is making me restless. Ok nvm.
I added 1 more mark for my Econs test -.-
Which means I improved, by 1 grade. But oh well, history is still the best. Hmm i should be studying... or practicing guitar. Not stare at my handsome blue psp. -.-

I'm becoming forgetful. Help me? :/

And why is the Know Your Enemy song by Green Day stuck in my head? Whyyyy.
I think I got influenced -.-
I must start thinking about Breaking Benjamin. I must start thinking about Breaking Benjamin.

Dance With the Devil By Breaking Benjamin

Here I stand, helpless and left for dead.

Close your eyes, so many days go by.
Easy to find what's wrong, harder to find what's right.

I believe in you, I can show you that I can see right through all your empty lies.

I won't stay long, in this world so wrong.

[Chorus:]
Say goodbye, as we dance with the devil tonight.
Don't you dare look at him in the eye, as we dance with the devil tonight?

Trembling, crawling across my skin.
Feeling your cold dead eyes, stealing the life of mine.

I believe in you, I can show you that I can see right through all your empty lies.

I won't last long, in this world so wrong.

[Chorus]

Hold on. Hold on.

[Chorus]

Hold on. Hold on.

Goodbye.

I like this song. I just like it. Heh. Don't ask me why. I just like it.
:/

I should be doing something productive now -.-
See ya.

Luck

2010-04-21T21:01:00.003+08:00

Boo.

The only good thing about my CA results so far is that I have gotten an A for History.
The rest sucks. Okay, maybe Malay Lit is okay. B ain't that bad right?

But really, the rest sucks.
I escaped Econs.
If i had 1 mark lower, I would had an S.
But I was lucky. I gotten an E.

And luck won't be on my side everytime.

And maths. Ahaha. Even though it is H1. I rather not talk about it.

And a D for GP isn't that good.

So the only good thing is history.

And Letty will be joining me for humanities week, since we are short handed.
Yay Letty x)
Yay History. (:

I will put up music of the day later. I'm lazy to search for videos now
PI. heh. PI. -.-

2010-04-20T19:28:00.003+08:00

I must end this.

I must.

Because it is for the best, right?

I don't know.

I don't want too.

But I should right?

Let things be like before.

So I should. I should.

Even if it hurts.

So that things will be like before.
But it hurts.
it hurts.

What am I supposed to do?

Bye.

2010-04-18T01:25:00.003+08:00

I am not going to be depressed anymore. I am going to cheer up.
Or at least I'm trying too. Heh. But it should work out, I supposed.

Music Of they Day: Wind Of Change by Scorpions

I supposed most of you haven't really heard this band before? But maybe I am wrong.
but decided to post this up since I LOVE this band when I was young and still loving it.

I'm not going to post the lyrics now, maybe tomorrow, but seriously, listen to it. You may like it. You may hate it. But that is none of my concern.
And the song is meaningful, unlike most of the songs you hear now that never fails to piss me off.

No offence but yea.
I aint a fan of Lady Gaga. I aint a fan of Justin Timberlake. I aint a fan of uhh Justin Bieber? I barely know any singers now, except for certain bands I'm listening too.

Like Breaking Benjamin. Or Three Days Grace, and now maybe abut of Green Day.

I just don't really like this pop thingy UNLESS, the song have a meaning.
And when i say meaning, it is really meaningful and not love crap.

Gosh, I'm becoming too emo.
This isn't good.

But don't worry, I'm no longer in that state of mind. i'm feeling better now.
I just feel like saying this.
For the sake of it :/

I asked my mum why my interests is different from most girls.
Why is my sense of music weird?
Why did I became a gamer?
Why did I like soccer?
Why am I not interested in fashion?
Why am I not interested in accessories?

She said is good to be different.

But is it?

Because sometimes I feel akward :/

I should just accept it.

Picture of The Day: Ninja Blade

Cool isn't it. This picture. Lol. I want to complete this :/

2010-04-16T22:28:00.003+08:00

I have nothing to say.

I'm confused.
or maybe hurt?

I don't know.
I don't want to know.

Keep it all inside. That is what I've been doing right.
And that's what I'm gonna continue doing.

Empty.
Confused.
Hurt.
Useless.

Or maybe. im just being used.

not in the right state of mind.

i will not cry. i will not break down.
i will not bow to this pain.

i will not.

unfortunately, i already did.

bye.

2010-04-15T20:34:00.001+08:00

Decided to delete the song for my blog.
Because I think it is giving my laptop problens 0.0, and my blog as well.

Will update more later.
Today had been a relatively bad day.

See ya.

2010-04-14T19:32:00.002+08:00

Music Of the day: Glass Skin by Dir en Grey

I posted this video before I think, but shall post it again. Because the song rocks x)

Today is a relatively sleepy day.
I was super tired in school. No idea why. Lack of sleep I guess?
Since I slept at 1am and woke up at 4am to do GP.
But end up spending time fixing the wireless, which was creating problems

I went to school normal time, so yea only had 3 hours of sleep.
Was okay in the morning, but I could barely open my eyes during malay lit.
Try my hardest to stay awake. I manage, but quickly drank coffee after that 0.0
Survive econs, but by GP, i already felt giddy.

And then there's guitar. Couldn't concentrate.
My mind had shut down.

Argh. I'm gonna sleep after Isyak. And shall wake 3am to do Econs.

Sleeping is a luxury now.
So many things to do.

2010-04-13T18:29:00.008+08:00

Music of The day: Tattoo by 12012

Change song.
Decided to forgo the playlist, and just put in 1 song.
Unknown Soldier by Breaking Benjamin x)

I don't really know what to blog about. So im blogging here just to say that I don't know what to blog about -.-

I finally started on AC2, but I shall stop for a while, because my addiction is currently on Ninja Blade.

heh. I think I need go rehab :/

It's hard being a female gamer -.-

And I got B for my Malay lit CA :/
is that good?
Honestly, I don't know 0.0

And I'm realizing, that I am really staying hidden. 0.0
Keeping a low profile is fun. Lol.
Don't really like to be known, it can be scary at times :/

2010-04-09T19:55:00.005+08:00

Music Of The Day: World End By Frantic Emiry

I just discovered this band/song like few minutes ago. o.o
SO I decided to post it up. Heh

Edited my playlist as well.
Haha.
I realised, mostly, it is alternative/hard rock or JRock. -.-
Welcome to my world. o.o

Look at her, she looked pissed.
But baby, please don't be pissed, cause you are sitting on me. lol

Actually she is just angry as she couldn't tear that piece of paper.

This baby has a temper.
-.-

oh wells.
But it is an emotional journey to see her grow up, like literally.
I wonder what her first word will be...
hmmm....

We'll see.

I shall go game now.
After that, I will start on Econs.
3 essays, how fun (:

Adios.

2010-04-06T21:49:00.002+08:00

Music Of The day: Never Too Late by Three Days Grace

I'm gonna be known as the maths rep that will fail her maths test -.-

Okay, shall blog about the day.
I freaking injured my leg! During PE. I thought it was nothing serious or something, but the pain never stop.
Just came back from the doctor, found out that I actually tore some muscles -.-
Mostly the hamstring part.

So I'm not coming to school tmr, and got 1 MONTH EXCUSE FROM PE. 0.0

Anyway, I would like to thank these people for their help! Seriously, thanks you guys!

LETTY: Thanks for being my support buddy. You really became my pillar. We have a lot in common and yes we get along well. You just love to tease me by saying I'm a mother don't you? xD THANKS FOR SUPPORTING ME, literally and by carrying my heavy notes and files. o.o Love you xD

HUI XI: FIRST AIDER xD Thanks for becoming my support as well. And help me carry my water bottle! xD Thanks for going all the way with Bixian to take the ice and the cream from the first aid thing. Love you also lahh xD

JOLENE: Thank you for handing up my PI for me, and also shade me when I was injured. And help me carry my bag and stuffs with Sheralin. :D Love you also xD

SHERALIN: Thanks for shading me along with SHeralin and help carry my stuffs! Love you also lahh! xD

MINMIN: HAHA MINMIN, thsnks for offering to take a trolley, even though it was a joke xD but i remembered it well xD love you xD

BIXIANG: FIRST AIDER xD OMG BIXIANG THANKS FOR APPLYING THAT CREAM ON ME. Thanks also for becoming my support, by helping me climb that overhead bridge when I wanted to go home even though you still need to go back to school after that, which means you have to walk all the way to the main gate, THANKS MAN. LOVEE YOUU xD

THAT FIRST AIDER: I DIDN'T MANAGE TO ASK FOR UR NAME, BUT THANKS FOR TRYING TO MASSAGE MY LEG AND MAKE TRY TO LET THE PAIN SUBSIDE.

ZAINAL: Omg, seriously, thanks lah. I don't know how many times I say thanks already, but again thanks lah! LOL. I'm so going to give you AC2 after you completed AC1. Heh and sorry for the longgg return journey >.<

10A05: THANKS FOR UR CONCERN. LOVE U ALL xD

AND SABRINA! SRY and thanks for not collecting the SGC without me. NEXT TIME WE WILL OK.

THANK YOU ALL OF YOUU

2010-04-04T12:18:00.003+08:00

Music Of the day: Crying Rain by Girugamesh

Lyrics

Furidashita ame wa kawaita ASUFARUTO ni tokete
Binetsu majiri no te tsumetaku tsutsumikonde iku

Namida misezu ni nani ka wo gizei ni shite aruku
Tatoe kekka kimi wo uragiru koto ni natte mo

Demo ne kawareru kibou wo sutete made kono mama
Kimi to zutto onaji yume wo miyou to ...

Kurikaesu hibi ga bokura wo nurashite iku
Ano hi egaita basho sae
Doshaburi no yoru wa zutto nariyamanai
Yoru ga naku naku

Furidashita ame ga tsuchi no nioi wo kaze ni nosete
Namanuruku tamaru mizutamari ni kao ga utsuru

Kore de ii no ka ? Kotae wa hitotsu shika nai kedo
Kore ga nayami unda kekka mou kikanaide kure

Jibun semareba kimochi wa sukoshi raku ni nareru ?
Hora ne itsumo higaisha no FURI shite bakari

Kireigoto narabe aruite waraiatte mo
Ame ga subete wo nagashiteku
Wakare wo tsugeta hi hontou wa naite ita yo
Uso no emi toke

Mayoi tsuzuke nayami tsuzuke
Tsuyoku natte ikeru to omou kara
Mayoi tsuzuke nayami tsuzuke
Konna hibi wo warai aeru hi made

Sutekirenu omoi yukkuri iki wo tomete
Hitomi tojite iki wo tsuki
Ano hi omoidashi te no hira tsuyoku nigiri
Ashita ni negau

Kurikaesu hibi ga bokura wo nurashite iku
Ano hi egaita basho sae
Doshaburi no yoru wa zutto nariyamanai
Yoru ga naku naku

Translation

The rain that started falling melts into the dry asphalt
I coldly wrap up this hand that is mixed with a slight fever

Without seeing the tears I walk turning something into the victim
As a result I even end up betraying you

But it can change I remain like this until I will throw away my hope
Always with you I want to see the same dream like you …

The repeating days are soaking us more and more
Even that painted place of that day
The downpouring night is never stopping to cry
The night is crying crying

The rain that started to fall is taking in the smell of the earth with the wind
Collecting halfheartedly my face is reflected in a puddle of water

Is it okay with that ? There is only one answer
This is the result born from agony
Please don’t ask me anymore

If I blame myself will my feelings become a little more comforting ?
Listen, always I am only pretending to be the victim

I’m walking lining up my hypocrisies even if we laugh together
The rain is washing everything away
The truth is that I was crying on the day you told me it was over
My false smile is melting

I keep doubting I keep worrying
Because I think I can live becoming strong
I keep doubting I keep worrying
Until we can laugh about those days together

The never ending memory Slowly I’m holding my breathing
I’m closing my eyes and exhale
I’m remembering that day I’m strongly grasping your hand
Wishing to tomorrow

The repeating days are soaking us more and more
Even that painted place of that day
The downpouring night is never stopping to cry
The night is crying crying

I think I posted this before, but I can't really remember. Oh well shall post it again, since I like it.
The song can calm me down.

SO chelsea won. and yes I'm a chelsea fan.
But I'm not too happy.
Don't ask me why.
Something seems different.

Shall continue with PI and econs now. and maths as well.
Not really in a good mood this days. Cried myself to sleep. But nvm about that.
maybe I should listen to crying rain more often.

im just a replacement.

2010-04-02T20:13:00.002+08:00

Music Of the Day: From Dusk Till Dawn by Abingdon Boys School

I have nothing to say.
I don't feel like saying anything.
Not really in a good mood now. Sorry.

Take care people. Enjoy the break.

2010-04-01T16:59:00.005+08:00

Music Of the Day: Give me a sign by Breaking Benjamin

I realized that it's been a while since i put up the music of the day thingy. So I guess I will continue it, starting today.

I'm tired. 2 hours of sleep last night doesn't help.

Okay today is a half day, so we end at 1pm. Still tiring actually. PE. heh.
Went home straight away after school.
Wanted to watch clash of the titans, but seriously, none of my friends are interested in it. Heh. Depends on interest I supposed.
I actually expected it.

So I just went home and babysit.
Baby had grown very fast :/
It seems like it just few months ago, that she was ahh... small.
Now she is in the process of going to crawl.
It is actually touching to see the development.

Okay, I'm being emotional.

Okay, I need to do my PI again, for the fourth time :/
oh wait i must put baby to sleep first....
which is harder than before.

Happy holidays everyone.
i need sleep. but for now. cannot :/

And I still want to watch Clash of The Titans

2010-03-31T18:57:00.002+08:00

I feel a sense of accomplishment.
It feels so good after completing a song, even though if it's simple.
I need to practice more. more. more. and more.
Skills can't just come like that. Hard work is needed.

okay, I must redo my PI. It is so hard to think of a new idea now.
But thanks to a bus ride, an idea suddenly appear after much thought.
Hope this time, it will be accepted :/
Oh well, I guess I shall do PI for tonight.

After watching the match last night, I thought I would want to sleep now but my eyes are still not tired. I supposed I shall wake up at 2.30am later as well :/
And yes, I didn't wake my brother up. It's not I don't want too. My mum don't let me too. Heh.

Anyway, I did scored a hat-trick. If you guys read my previous post, you will get it. =D
I'm thankful the guitar casing is waterproof.
I'm seriously thankful the casing is waterproof.
Thank goodness.

Added more songs to thr playlist. Some are Japanese so don't be surprise.Lol

Argh, I feel like watching movie, but it seems that no one I know is interested to watch clash of the titans.
Anyone?

The movie looks cool, to me.
Well...

I shall do my PI now. Take care people. :/

2010-03-30T17:41:00.002+08:00

I love 12 x 100m relay.
Somehow, it allows me to just release everything, just by sprinting 100m.
I was never really a fan of running, but just now, I fall in love with.
And we gotten first. The class girls. Congrats everyone. We did our best.

A huge burden is somehow lifted with econs and malay lit test now over.
But screw econs ):
I didn't manage to write the evaluation. Just two lines left. And I realised I had a lot of stupid mistakes.
Econs ): Many were upset after the test. Most didn't manage to complete it.
But sigh, I guess it's better to do badly for the first test, then to do badly for the major papers :/

We can try again next time.

I supposed Malay Lit was okay. Except my hand felt wobbly after the test. Haha, that is what you get when all your papers requires A LOT of writing.

Project Work. I must edit my PI.
It's amazing that Assasin's Creed 2 actually help me get an idea. Haha.
Maybe I shouldn't think to hard about it. I should just do about what I like, and it's easier.
Thanks to Assasin's Creed 2. See, gaming does help, sometimes. :/

I miscalculated again today.
For 2 days straight, I was drenched. At least, today was abit better than yesterday.
I seriously must remember to bring an umbrella.
If i got drenched again tmr, I scored a hat-trick
Yay.

I supposed I will sleep early tonight. Because I want to wake up at 2.45am.
Manchester United Vs Bayern Munich anyone?
I seriously don't know who to support. I like both of them. Even though I'm a chelsea fan, I still like Man U. How wonderful. I must be a betrayer :/

Oh well. I shall practice guitar for now.
Till next time.

2010-03-29T17:14:00.003+08:00

Bloodshot eyes. 2 hours and 45 mins of sleep. But I think it was worth it. I think :/

Start the day with a free period, and then history test. It was okay. I guess. Oh well, what's done is done and it cannot be undone.

However, GP was a disaster. I think I'm going to do badly. How sad.

Got selected for humanities week. The theme is Exploring Spaces. And we are thinking of doing about the Cold War. Cold War, Exploring Spaces, hmmm, maybe Soviet's expansionism fit the theme. Ok, shall thing about that later. For now I shall worry about Economics and Malay Lit.

Today is not a very lucky day I supposed. When I get out of school, it wasn't dark. When I was in the bus, it started to get dark. And somehow, i was daydreaming.
By the time I snap back into reality, I already missed two stops :/

So I have to alight at Bedok Interchange instead and decided to buy chicken rice for family dinner
I was aiming to get home before it rain. Aiming.
Unfortunately, when I reached the bus stop, it rained, heavily.
And I have no umbrella. And i was carrying a few packets of chicken rice.
And thus I was drenched.
And so I arrived home, wet. Seriously drenched. On the lighter note, I managed to save the chicken rice.

I bet I will start sneezing later.......

which I already did.

Unlucky it seems.
But I'm going to end this with a happy tone.

Happy Birthday Aiha! You are 17 now, which means you can't call me old, cause we are the same age. Muahahha. Have fun in MJ!

Shall continue with Econs now. Adios!

2010-03-28T17:45:00.002+08:00

Finally, after around 4 months of not updating, I finally decide to update.
Changed blogskin. Quite simple though. I don't really have the time to make a new blogskin yet, so I just use the ones from blogskins.com first.

Oh wells. JC life.
Heh, feels like no life. But I MUST NOT complain. Since I've chosen this path, I can't turn back.
I guess the school is okay, I guess.

But seriously, I need to learn time management because time is not on my side.
I must learn to manage between praticing guitar (since I have no background), babysitting, tutoring, homework and revision.

And maybe, just maybe if there is extra time, I can start drawing again.
If there is extra time, I can game longer.
If there is extra time, I can continue my stories.
If there is exra time, maybe I can blog more. Lol. o.o

Regarding my stories, I'm happy for those that reviewed them in Fanfiction but I'm really sorry I don't update them regularly. :/

Just maybe. I need inspiration.

Hmm and can anyone tell me if the blog song I put up is working? Cause I can't seem to hear anything.

oh well. Take care peeps.
There 6 chapters of history to remember (:

2009-12-21T20:02:00.002+08:00

I created a blogskin.
Like finally.
And i'm still not use to the codings though.
that is why i took a long timee.. -.-

2009-11-25T12:55:00.003+08:00

Babies, be careful of aiha. Especially if you are chubby, she will pinch you. With no mercy....

Muahahaha. Okay im joking about the no mercy part.

Anyway, yesterday I swear aiha was weird. -.- Weirder than me (thats rare).

And she loves to kiss KFC zinger! :D

Okay im kidding about that part also. -.-

Boohoo rooney im so sorry i drew you abit too big -.-

2009-11-15T20:42:00.002+08:00

Music of the day: Sanatorium by Plastic Tree

Aiha managed to make me look feminine. 0.0
I mean seriously lahh (cos i usually dont care about it)
For grad nite sake, i actually worry about all these stuffs. -.-
And aiha my fairygodmother now came to the rescue and did my hair and applied make up on me. -.-
i tell you, i cnt believe it was me.
BUT I LOVE THE HAIR MANN
Its like mixture of punk plus japanese? lol okay maybe not so much of punk.
haha
i shall mix asian and western during prom. -.-

AIHAA MY FAIRYGODMOTHER I LOVE YOU.
LOL.

2009-11-12T21:57:00.002+08:00

Music Of The Day: Crying Rain by Girugamesh

Today was fun, other than babysitting. Well in the morning, i practically have to take care of my 2 month old cousin, and it was tiring, cause you can never leave her side or she start crying again.
And this is only the beginning. . it's not the first time im going to wash baby poo and take care of baby. -.-
take it as a learning experience :D

Anyway, after the babysitting, went out with Dorcas. Met her at Easpoint at 2pm.
She was early. Really early.
So we went to World Of JJ to get her PSP.
I somewhat became her "advisor".
At least thats what the shop owner call me. HAHA
I seriously want that Persona game. Oh wells, shall wait :D
I didn't buy any games, cause i didn't bring my card ( which is a good thing in a way. it is currently secured with my mum )
We went to look for my vest, and gave up cos couldnt find a nice and affordable one.
Eat at banquet and we headed to tamp to watch 2012 xD
But while waiting for the movie to start, dorcas bought earings and then we entered game shop (another cool place)
After that we walked around again and look for my vest, and i found it! :D haha
we decided to explore tampines1 before the movie start.
Anyway, the movie was okay. the effects are great. :D
and it can be scary, cos when i watched it, i felt scared.
get what i mean? haha
SO today was fun. :D Hopefully one day can hang out with dorcas again, and maybe this time joseph and rukku can join us xD
Oh yea, joseph was supposed to meet up but couldnt make it. Sad.

Ok babysitting. Photo of baby!

2009-11-11T19:34:00.007+08:00

IM BACKKKKK!!!! :D
AFTER BEING MIA DUE TO BID BAD OLEVELS!
And today I have officially broken up with olevels :D

Anyway, im promoting.( like how aiha promote her classmate, im promoting my classmate)

PIANO LESSONS

A Classmate of mine, Qingle is holding music/piano lessons

Very professional, playing good (cause he completed the

highest grade already.lol)

Looking for students to teach.

Pricing is negotiable. Lessons include practical/theory.

If interested contact him(if you know him..lol)

Or contact me (if you have my number.lol)

If not just send me an email or thorugh msn or facebook or

imeem or whatever.

THANK YOU.

OK im done promoting. lol
anyway since o-levels are over.. IT MEANS IT'S TIME TO GAME :D
(things to do)

- START WITH RESIDENT EVIL
- CONTINUE WITH DISSIDIA FF AND MAKE CLOUD LEVEL 100 :D
- CONTINUE WITH FIFA10 AND COMPLETE SEASON WITH MAN U
- CONTINUE WITH DYNASTY WARRIOR
- CONTINUE WITH BLADE DANCER
- REPLAY CRISIS CORE
- START WITH NARUTO
- FINISH UP GUNDAM MISSION
- TRY OUT WINNING ELEVEN AND PRO EVOLUTION
- CONTINUE WITH NEED FOR SPEED

:D :D :D :D

im going nutsss.

wow pink.

2009-09-11T21:08:00.001+08:00

Music of the Day: Final Call by D'espairs Ray

wth. im sucha loserr. im so damn terrible.
having a friend like me is a bad thing.

so followed mum look for curtains and erm cushions..
and looked what the house has become.
it suddenly seems so uhh pink? lol
seriously. lol
luckily the walls are not pink. or else i wonder how im gonna survive.

but i don't think this is necessary. LOL

lol maybe she will cover it up.. but still.. o.o

and im becoming nocturnal.
cos i cant freaking sleep at night.
and this is affecting my day strength. -.-

sorry.sorry.sorry.sorry

Picture of The Day: Devil May Cry